Moments

Moments.

I wonder why there are such things as moments. Memories that we cherish even if it hurts us so much... I find human, like myself, funny in a sad sort kinda way. I somehow find myself attracted to those who have sadness within themselves and I like to watch them find a way out of this sadness or realization. For example. Meridith Gray from 'Gray's anatomy'

I would just chase after these dramas or movies just to see how it ends. Just to see what they've found or what they've come to learn and grow- never like to say it as change. I would have a nostalgic or satisfied feeling; as though I'm saying it's meant to be like that. Haha... Never realize that these thoughts were there till now.

Honey and Clover, episode 5.

"I ran because I was afraid he found out of my feelings. I wanted to call him just now. I feel at ease when I'm with him but I feel as though I'm betraying my feelings for Mayama. I don't like this feelings. I don't want my feelings, my bittersweet memories to be taken. I want to always cry for Mayama. Though I feel at ease when I'm with Nomiya. I can be at ease"

I'm watching episode 6 now. I'm so in love with this anime. I know it's slow but everything that they say just seem to capture my attention. It's just like watching a persons everyday life. What they slowly discover and when they decide to make that big decision that will change their life.

This sad moments. It seems as though I wish for someone to come save me but for me, I believe I want to share my hopes, dreams and my despair with someone. When I think about it, it sounds really hard but when I actually found friends who clicks with me and I truly care for. It came quite naturally and I felt like I should care for them. I want to care for them.

Friends. A friend of mine said friends are just a phase in life. It's true in someways but I wish to keep them for as long as I can. I wish to love how I use to love. No boundaries and nothing to keep us apart. I believe we are all special in our own ways. Why are we separated when we came from the same path of the road. These nostalgic feelings. They truly look so pretty and lovely. Somehow I feel lonely thinking and knowing these are just memories; so I must keep them well in me. Create more memories and treasure those around me right now. I must keep going. I mustn't look back and stay there in my past. There'll be more and more to come. I must believe in that. Remind myself that that everything's going to be okay. It's going to be just fine and on the day I have lived my life. I can smile that smile and know I've been there and I've done it. I've done what I wish to do and am happy; satisfied.

P.S: All the best to everyone looking for their smile. ^^